Faith Follies

October 26, 2008

I had a faith crisis today. I looked up and realized that November is next week and that I have 28 more days to study. Well, not really. I have 28 days until my test day. My studying ends on the 21st of November. This leaves me with 26 study days. I take a red-eye on the 21st and will not be doing any more studying once I start traveling.

The last 10 days—since I began this blog—have passed lightening fast. Twenty-eight days may seem like a long time, but knowing how fast time flies, I will be here before I know it. I am nervous but relieved to see the day approach. It is stressful being in limbo.

My crisis was marked by the fact that the day is quickly approaching. I am not feeling as prepared academically as I think I should be. I do not know what else I could be doing besides continuing to answer questions over and over again. That’s all I can do really.

My mother told me to envision my nursing license on the wall. I responded that I may actually have to physically make one up to help me envision it. So, that’s exactly what I did this afternoon. I searched the Internet for a certificate template. Not knowing what a nursing license actual looks like, I wrote what I thought it should say with a signature for the nursing board director and state governor. In my search for the name of the board director, I discovered that a nursing board really is just that—a group of nurses from multiple disciplines that comprise the state’s nursing board. The state governor appoints them to the board. So, I have all ten of my nursing licenses posted up all over the house.

My goal is to get through 265 questions tonight and another 265 questions tomorrow with Mosby’s CD-ROM.